Tuesday, December 30

Endless Circles

(Wrote in 2006.)

Always stood in the distance and watched as the world passed me on by.
There were more goodbyes then there were hello’s. 
Every time I tried to force myself to face a crowd.
I kept finding myself being pushed around! 
Tried my best to keep up and fit in.

Confused and irritated…
The crowd would vanish into thin air! 
Frantically looking around, finding myself here alone. 
Just to find myself wandering around in these endless circles again! 
Growing weary…
Unsure of what I’ve been searching for in the first place. 

I will not fall for temptation…
But why does it feel like my body dangling over the cliff edge again!?
I tried to climb back up, but there’s always someone at the ends of the rope! 
Controlling your faith, whether willing to hang on or to let go! 

I've tried my best to be nice to those who weren’t. 
They always pushed everyone else to their limits!
I've never done such a thing, but why am I always paying their price!? 
When they go by freely, unaffected by their conscious! 
I’m unsure of what I’ve ever done wrong!
I was taught to only tell nothing, but the truth! 
There were others that lied…
Always tried to prove against me other wise! 

I will not fall for temptation…
But why does it feel like my body dangling over the cliff edge again!?
I tried to climb back up, but there’s always someone at the ends of the rope! 
Controlling your faith, whether willing to hang on or to let go! 

My insecurity it starting to consume what is left of the depths of my mind.  
Clenched my hands over the front of my eyes. 
Depression and loneliness… is setting in.
Endless circles again...  

© Tiffany Ann Adkins 2015 - 2019