Absolutely Nothing

Every day feels exactly the same. 

I want to forget everything.

Like absolutely nothing has happened at all.

I miss,


 Who I once was.

So carefree and young.

Not a single care in the world. 

I wish I can go back. 

When the future seemed uncleared,


Not set in stone. 

When every laughter,


 Came with a free token.

When the warmest winds,


 Caress your skin. 

And the joy,


 Blossoms from within. 

Oh no~


The memory refuses to leave. 

What do I do~


 In these quiet~


Desolated hours? 

I write,


With each letter falling~


 Into an unmade bed.

Why is a place of peace and tranquillity.

Only achieved through the greatest of pains? 

And yet here they remain.

Although my heart is on fire. 

I thought~


 Eventually~


 I’d let go~

But~ 


My hands are now too cold.

I don’t know anymore. 

Every day just feels the same.

I want to forget everything.

Like absolutely nothing has happened at all.

I miss,


 Who I once was.

So carefree and young.

I want to leave my mask behind, 

And show myself to the world. 

But I can’t let them know~


 I’m so vulnerable.

So~


Here I am again~

Sitting alone in the dark. 

Like~ absolutely~ nothing~ has~ happened at all~